I had one of those moments today where you can see your life going down two different paths. I have no idea what the results of the two paths would be, but I knew they would be different. I decided to stop claiming benefit today since there is not a chance in the molten core of our Earth that I want a job before I go now - It is only 2 weeks away on Monday! I could have carried on claiming to get an extra hundred quid but since I have no intention of using it for what it was supposed to be used for, it amounts to stealing really. So I decided to stop, not because of any fear of the law, more of karmic consequences. My mind is weird like that. It came to the decision that if I was a hundred pounds shy of being able to stay in South Africa long enough to do what I wanted I’m sure I could get that money somehow, borrow it if necessary, where as who knows what kind of damage a karmic return for stealing could do. Might hit someone with a car. Apparently that hurts, and since so many good things have been happening to me recently I feel like I’ve paid off whatever big debt I had looming over me so I don’t want to start a new one. I’m just trying to be a better person. My name is Matt.

I have also sent off my novel Better Off Dead to be edited. It was due another go over before going round the publishing houses again (after  gather some more feedback from my anthology), but I thought a fresh pair of eyes would do a better job than me. Unfortunately it meant I had to go through some file conversion trouble to get the Appleworks file into a Word file. I just wish you could do it without losing all the italics, footnotes and some of the chapter headings. But then if computers did everything you wanted perfectly  there might be a deficit of fuck ups in the universe and my head might turn into a cheese sandwich or something. I’d hate to have to try and resist eating myself... especially when I am bad for me. Damn cheese.